I am Alive! ……And I have wings! A massive revelation unfolds

Though I intend this post to begin light heartedly, it will ultimately lead to an incredible experience I had a few evenings ago which I want to share and which YOU can replicate if you take the time to understand it. What will you gain? Wings, I will give you wings and an intenseness of feeling that is difficult to describe but which I will attempt. It is accessible to everyone through a simple phrase and, now this is important, experiencing a sudden shift in perception.

What differentiates a dragon from a giant lizard or a dinosaur? ……..It can fly (ok yes and usually breathe fire though not always, let us not forget the ice alpha dragon in How to Train Your Dragon…….not that I use that as a reference point ordinarily). Not all mythology quotes dragons with wings. But they can all fly which is why in some traditions they are depicted as the guardians of heaven.

Now we come to the SERIOUS part so take a deep breath in an out. Have a moment of silence…… If you want to experience the same intense joy I did, then take a minute or so to seriously contemplate the following.

I want to share an experience I had a few evenings ago.

I’m not going to pretend that everything is fine and dandy in my world, neither will I get into the specifics of that just right now as it’s not important.

Walking home in the darkness as Winter encroaches. I am sure many of you will have experienced such a downward plummet in positivity. A certain listlessness, hopelessness or even lack of purpose. You feel drained, perhaps you are returning from a hard day’s work and are exhausted. If this job is your average laborious drudgery this feeling may well be heightened, though even a job you love on icy nights such as these can leave you drained.

I walked along and became suddenly aware of the way my footsteps caused the gravel to crunch. The sound seemed to reverberate out into the abandoned street.

Then something happened. Something that on the face of it does not seem spectacular and yet, when you register it internally. When you really FEEL it, changes your whole world.

A voice within me simply said the following three, words:

“I am alive…”

I said it gain

“I am alive”

Next time I shouted it out loud “I’m alive!!!!”

I am alive

Right now I am alive. Never is anything real but my aliveness in that moment.

Nothing so terrible in this world has defeated me. Look at me, I live.

Here I stand, here I breathe. In and out. Here I clasp my hands. I choose each step.

…..I am alive……Why not be happy? In the game of life I am winning because here I stand. Because I stand I am victorious.

A warrior still breathing, not vanquished, never vanquished.

All of a sudden everything gained a new glamour, a new vibrancy, richness. It was like everything came into focus because it shared the aliveness of my perception.

The Christmas lights twinkling like electric fruits, like otherworldly jewels looming out amidst the darkness from the trees and houses seemed a fairy show all for me.

I began to run, my breath flowing out in humid clouds, saying the words “I am alive” over and over again and all of a sudden the wind was rushing by my ears and I was flying. I was flying through the air with no thought for the next moment, only the fulfilling rush of the present. The blood in my veins. The sacredness of life, of animation, of flight.

Since that night the knowledge of life has sustained me. Brought me back to the present whenever I have felt myself drift into despair. Nothing is more real.

Take a short moment to contemplate this….

I hope you’ve found this blog post useful, please feel free to pass it on and share it with others who might also find it interesting. And please do comment, share your thoughts. They may well inspire others. Ideas are the paintbox of life.

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You ARE Special- You Are a Dragon

Let me tell you something. When I tell you it you will LISTEN. You will hear these words in your mind as you read them because you KNOW them to be true. Because I speak them from the heart.

I don’t know who you are and therefore it is impossible for me to say anything with bias or judgement, not that I would. I would say the same thing if you were stood right in front of me.

You ARE special. You are different. And that’s not wrong. This is nothing to do with conceit or excuses. People these days say someone is a bit “special” to insult them. This heeds back to an idiotic action or weirdness or being out of place but its ok because patronisingly so that person is special or having a special moment.

It’s because people fear difference. They fear it in others but they also fear it in themselves. There is safety in numbers. In uniformity. Difference is unknown and it stands alone from the other known things. It goes against the instinct for safety. It’s also how every major achievement or progression in human history has occurred.

The difference in you is a great one. Not great as in big. It can be big or small or anything else in between. Great as in meaningful. You don’t have to accomplish anything in your life at all. It’s enough to simply be happy. To be happy there must be acceptance. Not simple indifference. I mean acceptance of non-acceptance. Of the fact that you are a dragon. You are special. You are substantial.

This is very important to understand. I was bullied for my strangeness, for my weirdness. None of that matters, because I understand that I am special and so are you. This is no deluded sense of self-importance or even self-acceptance but self-acknowledgement. Nothing external truly matters. You are you and that is something non-replicable. Nobody in the world is exactly like you are. You are someone amazing. You have something to offer.

You are a dragon.

It is enough to understand this yourself, even if no one else does. Because it’s not about everyone else. Still that’s one more person who understands that in themselves and everyone else. I understand it, you do. That already is not no one.

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How Your Dragon Can Give You Instant Confidence

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There are times you need to become the dragon, but mostly this is not the case.

There’s a reason I refer to it as the dragon within.

It’s not about being aggressive, arrogant or pushy. It’s about carrying an inner confidence with you ALL the time. You can feel truly liberated within yourself, you don’t have to prove yourself to anybody. Why? Because secretly you are a dragon.

Once you realise this and become aware of it, you won’t need to ‘build your confidence’. You will have access to it right here, right now. What you will need to build is practising that awareness, practising that realisation that the dragon was and is always there.

Take a moment and think of a favourite action, adventure or martial arts film. Now there’s always a hero/heroine. Chances are you dream of being this person.

What sets the hero apart? What usually makes them so attractive and identifiable?

He or she is usually perceived as quiet, calm , they never tend to look for a fight, but when it’s time to be the hero they shock everyone. In this phase they usually either overcome their own self-doubt and insecurity, proving it to themselves or else they are the brooding type who knew it all along.

They always have a higher purpose and draw confidence from their inner strength which they ultimately realise they always had and always will have.

Yes confidence can be built but you know what? You have that confidence and that justified defiance in you already! Build instead your belief and understanding of that fact, your belief in the dragon within.

Do you think I was always confident? Aha, nope…. This brings up again the concept of the mental and physical dragon.

As a young girl I was physically strong, my 8 year old body would readily endure hard training my mental and physical dragons came alive and flew together as one during training but outside of this, the mental dragon refused to raise its head because I was unaware of its existence.

I was unaware that confidence, that my dragon, could be consciously realised. It took me a good while.

But I want you to realise today, now, THIS VERY SECOND!

Say it…..No matter how silly you may feel, even if it is in your head to begin with say it:  ‘I am strong’

‘I am confident’

‘I am filled with the power of my dragon, there’s only one person who needs to believe it and that person is me!’

Does some small or hopefully large part of you believe this now? Yes? Good.

Others will follow suit……I promise. 

 


I hope my words are helping you in some small way to realise what you have already and I welcome, no, encourage any comments, ideas, feedback or questions you may have. Please feel free to leave them below.